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Friday, June 15, 2007
Story of my life!
This is kind of a touchy subject for me, For those of you who dont know I have a very bad stress and anxiety disorder... I woke up this morning feeling very panicy, I hate mornings like this... Sometimes i wake up and I feel great but other times (like today ) i feel like shit..
I have had this for about 4 years now and I am on Medication for it but it doesnt always work. When i get a panic attack i feel my chest tighten up, i feel as though I cant breath, i get dizzy and hot flashes and feel like Im about to die or im going crazy!!
Sounds Fun eh!!
Its the most horrible feeling ever and no matter how many times i go through it i always seem to think i am dying, I am convinced that this time will be different.
Panic attacs come without any warning and without any way to stop it therefore i have to deal with it everytime it happens which sucks... I tend to get panicy when i am not in my own environment and when i am alone... I also have them alot when i am with friends but I try and hide it the best i can because to me its embarresing..
I have this disorder because I am a big Worrier and I stress about everything all the time.
A panic attack is not dangerous, but it can be terrifying, largely because it feels 'crazy' and 'out of control.' Panic disorder is frightening because of the panic attacks associated with it, and also because it often leads to other complications such as phobias, depression, substance abuse, medical complications, even suicide. Its effects can range from mild word or social impairment to a total inability to face the outside world.
In fact, the phobias that people with panic disorder develop do not come from fears of actual objects or events, but rather from fear of having another attack. In these cases, people will avoid certain objects or situations because they fear that these things will trigger another attack.
I will avoid anything if i feel as though its gonna trigger another attack, Its horrible...
Anyways enough said about all this, I am sick of having it in my life and I just want it to go away!!!!
3 want to get Lei'd!.:
I am with ya!! I have been on medication (Lexapro) for about a year now for Generalized Anxiety Disorder and I also keep Xanax in case I have an attack anyway. It can really be a bitch and if I miss one of my daily pills, I can feel it by the end of the work day!! a few days without it and I'm ready to cut my skin.
8:48 AM
You are not alone Hollz.
I started getting anxiety attacks in 1991.
1992 was a year from hell for me.
I was finally properly diagnosed in 1995. I have been on meds since then (Effexor) which has helped a lot. I have had a few over the past 10 years but not half as much as I used to.
I agree with you though, no matter how many panic attacks you have had, you NEVER get used to them. Everytime I have one it leaves me shaken for days.
When I start to feel one coming I try to do something that uses up a lot of energy. Washing walls, fast walk outside....anything to help burn off that access energy that builds up inside.
Just no you are not alone.
((((HUGS)))) to you.
11:07 PM
Unfortunately, you can see how much company you have in the panic department. Mine have gotten soo much better since I got on Ativan. They used to rule my entire life. I still have them, but much less often, and much less intensely for the most part. I never would have gotten on an airplane before the Ativan - never never. I still try an avoid things I know are going to trigger them, but sometimes they just come on for no apparent reason. I know how you feel too...
7:08 AM
