A Place for me to say whatever the hell I want
Saturday, July 21, 2007
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Ever had one of those days when you just felt like shit?
I'm feeling down in the dumps today and it sux.
Everything is getting on my nerves.
I have a very close friend (that ive known for years) that has recently moved in above me with my landlord. They are in a gay relationship, which is fine, but my problem is that I never get to see my friend because his boyfriend is apparently very controlling. He doesnt want him hanging out with me all that often because he wants to keep the relationship between them and myself a "landlord/tennant relationship"
Its a little to late for that considering that Ive known chad (my friend) for aout 15 years and we've always been tight.
This is an ongoing issue and quite frankly I am sick and tired of it, my feelings are hurt and I dont know weather or not to approach my landlord about it because I dont want to cause any problems considering I wish to continue living here.
I dont really see the big deal with Chad coming down to my apartment once and a while to have a drink with me or even us getting together and going out for the day..
Are gay relationships always so dramatic?
Maybe my landlord is jelious of the relationship Chad and I have, (if you can even call it a relationship)
I'm just confused as what to do, I cant continue this way thats for sure. I miss my friend and I want him back:(
On another note I am Pissed off because I have to work midnights tonight. I shouldn't bitch because I do need the $$$ in such a big way but i just cant help it. I have to be there in 9 hours and i am not looking forward to it! Grrrr!!! i cant wait until the end of August because thats when I start my new job working mon-fri like normal people.
Ok so enough with the midnight shift bitching.
I have another thing to bitch about:)
I have absolutely no clothes, I am so sick of getting up in the morning and going into my closet to find absolutely nothing to wear or just having nothing that fits. Its depressing!!!!
I would love to have a couple thousand dollars to go on a shopping spree and buy a completey new wardrobe.
That woud be so SWEET!!!!!
I guess the way I look has alot to do with my happiness as well, I just feel so ugly lately and its not a nice feeling.
Sorry about all the negativity in this post but I needed to vent!
My man is gone away all weekend and I just need a hug! that would make things a bit better....
1 want to get Lei'd!.:
I am having one of those blah depressing days today!! I know how you feel! I am just picking at everything...well, letting everything get to me I should say. Hope it gets better...for us both!
7:13 PM
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